Some decisions, I've realized, are harder to make than others.
Like this one:
I've been offered a job, which is truly a great blessing and for which I'm truly grateful. It's mine for the taking; no more worrying about whether I'll get a job or starve to death for the rest of my natural born life. It's in research, which is a great platform from which to move into a doctoral program. And, it's only a 1 year position. So, I put a year in and I move on. I kind of like that idea.
So, what's the problem?
I'm glad you asked!
1. It's as a research coordinator and it has the chance of turning into more of a secretary-like position than allowing me to do any real research.
2. It's about 2 hours away from my family.
3. It doesn't pay well. At all. Especially with an $800/month student loan payment to consider.
What's a girl to do? Well, let's further complicate the picture :(
1. If I accept that position, they want me to start on 6/1. I don't want to start on 6/1. I'd have to take 6/4-6/8 off (they know this) for graduation (it's a three day affair) and travel (eight hours each way).
2. I have three other interviews scheduled for next week. With school districts. Teaching positions. They have their pros/cons as well, the biggest being that it's not a good platform from which to apply for a doctoral program (my ultimate goal, despite the student loan debt situation).
So, the dilemma is that the schools (if they make offers--and that's a big if) won't do so until mid-June, at the earliest. Too late to fall back on the research job if I'm not hired.
You know how people claim that they knew what to do because "God spoke to them..." or "God led them to...?" Well, that's never happened to me. I always feel like God's saying, "This one's on you kid, don't screw it up." Which leaves me with a decision to make.
Um, so, if God speaks to you anytime soon, could you ask Him what I'm supposed to do, too?